A Different Kind of Thought

2011-12-29T21:37:00.001-07:00

When you’re weak, I’ll be strong
When you let go, I’ll hold on
When you need to cry, I swear that I’ll be there to dry your eyes
When you feel lost and scared to death,
Like you can’t take one more step
Just take my hand, together we can do it
I’m gonna love you through it.

2011-11-24T16:09:00.002-07:00

Everyone has their weak spot.
The one thing that despite you best efforts,
will always bring you to your knees.
Regardless of how strong you are otherwise.

2011-11-23T15:03:00.002-07:00

Is it really too much for me to ask of a normal life? One where people can support the need for me to be happy for once? Apparently not. I'm always choosing. Always. It's either one situation or the other. I can choose to be happy and with the person I love the most in this world, but lose everybody else. Or be alone and miserable and still be able to talk to my friends about whats going on in my life. I am getting penalized for a situation I had absolutely no control over. The only thing I have control over is my own happiness.

And nobody will fucking support me.

2011-11-22T23:16:00.002-07:00

What is moral fiber?

"Being a fucking boy scout. But lately I’ve been seeing it differently. Now I think moral fiber’s about finding that one thing you really care about. That one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. And when you find her, you fight for her. You risk it all, you put her in front of everything, your life, all of it. And maybe the stuff you do to help her isn’t so clean. You know what? It doesn’t matter. Because in your heart you know, that the juice is worth the squeeze. That’s what moral fiber’s all about.

2011-11-21T13:53:00.002-07:00

It ain't complicated
Well, I've grown to hate it
I never liked the taste of crow but baby I ate it
They tried to warn me
They said that you were ornery
So don't bring me those big brown eyes and tell me that you're sorry
Well you might as well throw gasoline on a fire
The way you lie

You lie like a priceless Persian rug on a rich man's floor
You lie like a coon dog basking in the sunshine on my porch
You lie like a penny in the parking lot at the grocery store
It just comes way too natural to you
The way you lie

That ain't my perfume
I bet she had a curfew
You told me you were out with the boys and baby I believed you
So why you lookin' so nervous
You know you're gonna deserve this
I oughta kill you right now and do the whole wide world a service
Well my daddy's gonna straighten you out like a piece of wire, like a piece of wire
The way you lie

You lie like the man with the slick back hair who sold me that Ford
You lie like a pine tree in the back yard after last month's storm
You lie like a penny in the parking lot at the grocery store
It just comes way too natural to you
The way you lie

Well, I'll tell you what I'm gonna do
I'm gonna drive into the big ol' muddy river
I'm gonna park my car in the middle of the mile-long bridge
And then I'm gonna cry well maybe just a little
Then I'm gonna slip off the ring that you put on my finger
Give it a big ol' fling and watch it sink
Down, down, down
There it's gonna lie
Until the Lord comes back around

Because you lie like a priceless Persian rug on a rich man's floor
You lie like a coon dog basking in the sunshine on my porch
You lie like a penny in the parking lot at the grocery store
It just comes so dang natural to you
The way you lie
The way you lie
Well it's what you do, it's who you are

2011-11-21T11:46:00.003-07:00

We live in a world built on promises and constructed by liars.

Words cannot describe how humiliated, embarrassed and hurt I am. I gave you everything I could. And now I can't help but feel that I just wasn't giving you enough. I am not to blame. This is not my fault. This is YOUR fault. You lied, and lied, and lied. You got so caught up in trying to not hurt me that you only made it worse. I have absolutely no trust in you. My hated for you is worse than anything I have ever felt before. This pain is worse than anything I have ever felt before. I pity the next girl who falls in love with you. But maybe you won't hurt them like you hurt me. Maybe you will. All I know is that you destroyed me. You destroyed everything that we ever had and anything that we ever will have. You have DESTROYED me. I am now effected for the rest of life and it's all thanks to you. What you have done is unforgivable. And I will hate you for the rest of my life.

2011-11-11T17:57:00.000-07:00

wow. I fucking hate life.

2011-11-10T22:04:00.001-07:00

2011-11-10T16:00:00.000-07:00

Don't worry. Just breathe.
If it's meant to be, it will find it's way.

2011-11-09T17:39:00.002-07:00

“No one wants to die, even people who want to go to Heaven don’t want to die to get there, and yet, death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because death is very likely the single best invention of life. It’s life’s change agent; it clears out the old to make way for the new. right now, the new is you. Right now, the new is you. But someday, not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it’s quite true. Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma, which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important have the courage to follow your own heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

- Steve Jobs

2011-11-08T21:00:00.001-07:00

Tim: We have queen beds
Chelsey: Too bad I'm not there with you
Tim: Well then we'll need 3 beds...
Chelsey: WHAT!?
Tim: I don't need you getting frisky and having 21 children!

2011-11-08T18:21:00.000-07:00

Remind yourself that it's okay not to be perfect.

2011-11-07T21:00:00.002-07:00

You could be a black bird on the country street
Hiding from the world with broken wing
But you better believe you're gonna fly with me

2011-11-07T18:22:00.004-07:00

Do more of what makes you happy.

2011-05-01T00:02:00.001-06:00

I'm giving you the ability to destroy me.
But I'm trusting you not to.

2011-04-10T21:49:00.000-06:00

We're never really prepared for what happens next.

2011-04-05T21:06:00.001-06:00

Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you're going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going?

But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you're crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.

2011-03-28T22:55:00.002-06:00

I want to fall between the creases inside your palms.
Or slip along the curve of your lips.
And I don't mean this in a romantic way.
I don't mean I want your lips on mine.
I don't mean for you to touch me.
I don't mean that I love you with every bit of myself.
I just mean that you are something different.
Something strange.
Something new.

2011-03-16T21:29:00.002-06:00

You know it's a funny thing.
I find myself in bed hours earlier when I'm not laying next to you.
The only reason I stayed up was the feeling of cuddling and kissing you.
Waking up to you in the morning and sometimes throughout the night.
And now staying up is dumb without you.

2011-03-15T23:17:00.000-06:00

NO ONE can change a person.
but someone can be a reason for a person to CHANGE.

2011-03-15T23:09:00.001-06:00

Sometimes my heart skips a beat. I kinda like it
<3

2011-03-14T12:17:00.001-06:00

The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be.

2011-03-07T09:30:00.000-07:00

If people are trying to bring you down, it only means that you are above them.

2011-03-06T16:49:00.000-07:00

It might be stormy now. But it can't rain forever.

2011-02-26T16:15:00.001-07:00

Look at you. You’re young. And you’re scared. Why are you so scared? Stop being paralyzed. Stop swallowing your words. Stop caring what other people think. Wear what you want. Say what you want. Listen to the music you want to listen to. Play it loud as fuck and dance to it. Go out for a drive at midnight and forget that you have school the next day. Stop waiting for Friday. Live now. Do it now. Take risks. Tell secrets. This life is yours. When are you going to realize that you can do whatever you want?

2011-02-21T21:54:00.000-07:00

it's hard to feel sorry for people when they get what they deserve.

2011-02-21T16:33:00.001-07:00

I keep find excuses for this not to work. I'm at a loss for what to do. I'll find myself crying for no apparent reason. You drive me crazy. Everything. I can't do anything about it. I think about how hurt I can get. And the more I think about it, the more scared I get.

2011-02-19T20:23:00.001-07:00

happiness is the best revenge of all. nothing drives people more crazy than seeing someone have a good fucking life.

2011-02-19T20:19:00.000-07:00

fuck school. I'm gonna see the world

2011-02-17T14:44:00.000-07:00

YOU.

You. Yes, you. I am writing this for you.

I know you are reading this. And I want you to know I am writing this for you. No one else will understand. No one else knows. They think that this is for them. But it’s not. I am writing this for you.

I want you to know, life…it’s hard. Every day can be a challenge. It can be a challenge to get up in the morning. To get yourself out of bed. To put on that smile. But I want you to know, that smile is what keeps me going some days. You need to remember, even through the tough times, you are amazing. You really are.

You should be happy. You are gorgeous.

I know that the weather might not be perfect. You might have to turn your back to the wind or feel the cold nipping at your nose. But you know what, at least you are there to feel it. At least you can enjoy the sun’s warm rays on your face. Or that cold February wind biting at your cheeks. You know what that means?

You are alive.

Everything will be okay.

2011-02-16T15:58:00.001-07:00

What's really important?

Being happy. It really us too bad that I feel like I've wasted the past 2 years of my life on something I'm no longer happy doing. Failing tests, writing essay, and the thousands and thousands of dollar spent. And what have I got out of it... absolutely nothing. I'm not cut out for this university bullshit. You can't put me in a room, give me a text book and expect the best out of me. I can't do it anymore. I'm done.

2011-02-11T14:25:00.001-07:00

I'm not gonna sit here and let you watch me take the blame for your fall.

2011-02-10T17:30:00.001-07:00

there's a lot of things i can be sorry for. but i'm not.

2011-02-10T16:46:00.004-07:00

we're always gonna hit a crossroad. and the choices can be painful. its hard being so far away. and you don't see that. my job isn't to make you happy. my job isn't to hold your hand through every little obstacle. you make your own decisions. and you bring me down when you fall down the slightest bit. feel my frustration, anger, and constant hatred towards you. I'm living my own life. and you're making me choose. I choose my own life. where I know I'm going somewhere. and I'm gonna be with people who live me despite my flaws and the things I don't mean to say. It's not worth it anymore. because I'm hitting a crossroad. and we're going separate ways.

2011-02-08T11:55:00.001-07:00

I'm gonna steal your heart. away.

dream or nightmare

2011-02-05T16:23:00.000-07:00

Tsunami
To see a tsunami in your dream, means that you are being overwhelmed by some repressed feeling or unconscious material that is rising up to the surface. You are experiencing some unhappiness and emotional instability in a waking situation.

collide

2011-01-20T10:08:00.000-07:00

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you, yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide
You finally find you and I collide

2011-01-11T22:48:00.001-07:00

I think about the first day we met. How awkward and odd of a situation. Sleazy snowboarder meets ex marching band addict. The most uncommon combination you can think of. How imperfect is seems. But then I think about how perfect it is.

2011-01-07T12:41:00.001-07:00

"We should have a welcome sign like: Welcome to my life. You're lucky to be in it!"
- hot mess #2

talks about talks... we have them

2011-01-05T22:40:00.003-07:00

Kristen: by the end of semester we will be whipping our six packs out as party favors
Me: I'm gonna grate the cheese for my eggs on mine
Kristen: who needs laundry machines when we can use my washboard abs?
Me: people are gonna start calling me the REAL situation
Kristen: shit... I can't think of another line.
Me: cause the REAL situation knows whats up

2011-01-05T18:49:00.001-07:00

don't settle for something that you don't really want.
being safe isn't a reason for you to wake up everyday feeling miserable.

2011-01-04T22:37:00.002-07:00

all s m : ) e s

2011-01-04T12:01:00.000-07:00

if you're not living on the edge, you're taking up too much space.

2011-01-03T17:50:00.001-07:00

I hate being at home. hate it.

2011-01-01T00:02:00.000-07:00

Have you ever lost yourself in a kiss?
I mean pure psychedelic inebriation. Not just lustful petting but transcendental metamorphosis when you became aware that the greatness of this being was breathing into you. Licking the sides and corners of your mouth, like sealing a thousand fleshy envelopes filled with the essence of your passionate being and then opened by the same mouth and delivered back to you, over and over again – the first kiss of the rest of your life. A kiss that confirms that the universe is aligned, that the world’s greatest resource is love, and maybe even that God is a woman. With or without a belief in God, all kisses are metaphors decipherable by allocations of time, circumstance, and understanding

2010-12-31T23:46:00.001-07:00

New Years Ever. Home alone. Wow this feels shitty.

tfln

2010-12-31T20:01:00.001-07:00

(407): I hope to God 2011 is the year I stop loving tequila.

2010-12-31T16:36:00.002-07:00

Do what makes you happy,

Be with who makes you smile,

Laugh as much as you breathe,

Love as much as you live

2010-12-30T10:41:00.001-07:00

i miss...you?

2010-12-28T18:02:00.000-07:00

everything will be okay in the end. if it's not okay. it's not the end.

angels on the moon

2010-12-26T17:53:00.000-07:00

Don't tell me if I'm dying. Cause I don't wanna know. If I can't see the sun. Maybe I should go. Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming. Of angels on the moon. Where everyone you know. Never leaves too soon

2010-12-25T00:29:00.001-07:00

“The average person tells 4 lies a day, and 1460 a year.
A total of 88,000 by the age of 6.
And the most common lie is I’m fine.”

2010-12-24T00:04:00.000-07:00

Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love. But in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again.

2010-12-23T19:15:00.004-07:00

“Me? I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I saw, I’m scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you.”
- Dirty Dancing

2010-12-23T15:32:00.001-07:00

there you go pulling me right back in.

me, myself and I

2010-12-10T01:27:00.002-07:00

i hate feelings
i hate thoughts
i hate emotions

i want to be alone
its nice sometimes
you know?
not all the time
but you don't have to go though all of that trouble
of feeling and thinking and wasting emotions

it only hurts you
people hurt you
once you let them in
they know everything
even if you don't mean to tell them anything
it happens

so stop feeling
stop thinking
and stop to think about yourself
and only yourself

because in the end

you're the only person you'll ever have.

2010-12-05T20:10:00.000-07:00

you were the load your mom should have swallowed.

... literally.

2010-12-03T23:19:00.006-07:00

women give sex for love.
men give love for sex.

- jesse pollard

2010-12-02T20:19:00.004-07:00

Rules were meant to be broken.
I wasn't born to be locked up.
If I know the risk is worth it.
I'll take it.
If it's not. I'll probably take it anyways.
Just to test myself.
Never tell me I can't do something.
I'll try my hardest to prove you wrong.

2010-12-01T22:51:00.001-07:00

I hate not knowing what I want.
But if I wanna let you in, I'm terrified.
I don't know what's worth the risk.

pull me down hard and drown me in love

2010-11-23T14:16:00.000-07:00

I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the brush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in

If I could walk on water, If I could tell you what’s next
Make you believe, make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the sound of your voice
The loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet,
perfect words that you said

If I could walk on water, if i could tell you what’s next,
make you believe, make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just to pull me down hard
And drown me in love

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just to pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the pull of your heart
I can taste the sparks on your tongue
I see angels and devils
And God
when you come on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on - HOLD
Singing shalala la
Singing shalala lala
Ooooooo
Ooooooo
Oooooooooooooooo

Come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just to pull me down hard
And drown me in love

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just to pull me down hard
And drown me, drown me in love

(come on get higher, loosen my lips)It's all wrong
(faith and desire at the swing of your hips)It's all wrong
(just to pull me down hard and drown me in love)It's all right

So, come on, get higher
Come on, get higher
'Cause everything works love
Everything works in your arms

2010-11-16T23:26:00.000-07:00

real people aren't perfect. perfect people aren't real. so you can either love us for our flaws, or hate us because we're real.

erase me

2010-11-12T23:23:00.000-07:00

keep on running, keep on running
And nothing works
I can't get away from you, no

2010-11-12T22:53:00.002-07:00

I hate when people say everything happens for a reason. They only ever say that when bad things happen. Truth is, eventually we get so far into the future we stop worrying about those past issues and why they happened. Every single person we meet will have an impact on our lives, but we will forget them eventually. Maybe not 100%, but the silhouette will start to fade and you're left with an empty face. We can say that those people help shape us into the individual we are today. But again, all those reason we're always searching for... we come to realize we actually aren't. We're just looking for a way to get over them and not have to deal with them. There are no reason. There never will be. Things don't happen for a reason. They happen because we've slowly shaped those decisions to mold into the places we want them. Sometimes they don't finish exactly as we want them to. But we eventually learn to give up. Stop caring. Stop searching for these so called "reason"

2010-11-06T16:19:00.000-06:00

I finally know now what I should have known then.

we fight to feel

2010-11-05T16:22:00.002-06:00

quarrels are bitter things. they don't go according to any rules. they're not like aches and wounds; they're more like splints in the skin that won't heal because there isn't enough material.

2010-11-05T15:18:00.001-06:00

and we're nothing more than empty souls
searching for light
living in a wasteland

2010-11-03T23:03:00.004-06:00

Some things are better left unsaid, and some people are better off forgotten.

down down down

2010-11-03T19:19:00.000-06:00

I don’t know where I’m at
I’m standing at the back
And I’m tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

Not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
What I could be missing
But I’m missing way too much
So when do I give up what I’ve been wishing for.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.
Oh I am going down, down, down
Can’t find another way around
And I don’t want to hear the sound, of losing what I never found.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
I never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Oh it’s coming down, down, down.

2010-11-03T02:11:00.001-06:00

but really it's okay.
because I'm used to being let down.

strip me

2010-11-03T00:02:00.000-06:00

Take what you want
Steal my pride
Build me up
Or cut me down to size
Shut me out
But I'll just scream
I'm only one voice in a million
But you ain't taking that from me

2010-11-02T21:13:00.003-06:00

appreciate what you have. or someone else will.

2010-10-31T14:54:00.002-06:00

In a biology 20 experiment, frogs were dissected and their hearts removed and separated. Each chamber was separated and placed into a saline solution. Thus, you have the left and right atrium and the left and right ventricles. The solution allows each of the four chambers to continue beating. Now when you place one copper wire on a ventricle (which beats slower) and attach another one to the atrium (which beats faster), the slower part catches up to the faster one. When they did this with another frog's heart, it once again caught up to beat the same. It makes you wonder, could two people be close enough to have their hearts beat at the exact same time? was it because of as higher emotion, of just something physical?

2010-10-30T00:37:00.001-06:00

why give everything to somebody who doesn't even realize how much they mean to you?

because you can't stop.

give and take

2010-10-28T11:30:00.002-06:00

we give. and we take.
its a proven fact.
we feel like we deserve to take once we give.
sometime we give too much.
and don't take anything in return.
sometime we give it all.
give everything we have.
and don't get anything in return.
should we expect something.
even the littlest return.
sometime we wonder if its worth it.
all of this giving.
of the heart and the soul.
sometimes it turns into an emotional downfall.
we're left with nothing.
because we have given so much.
but when it is worth it.
you're left with that feeling.
and you like it.
sometime you just need to give.
and sometimes you just need to take.

2010-10-27T20:40:00.002-06:00

why wait a minute for something you should have done yesterday.
so why did we not have a bouch until today!?!?
my life is now complete.

2010-10-26T23:26:00.001-06:00

so I would choose to be with you,
that's if the choice were mine to make.
but you can make decisions too

2010-10-26T23:04:00.002-06:00

ask what the misery is
the despair that is felt
ask for the security
the abundant
the feelings
nourishment
or punishment
don't let failure approach

runaway

2010-10-26T22:59:00.000-06:00

Let's have a toast for the douchebags,
Let's have a toast for the assholes,
Let's have a toast for the scumbags,
Every one of them that I know
Let's have a toast to the jerkoffs
That'll never take work off
Baby, I got a plan

Run away fast as you can

2010-10-25T21:37:00.000-06:00

"It could be wrong,

but it should have been right,

to let our hearts ignite."

2010-10-22T19:31:00.002-06:00

A melody is like seeing someone for the very first time.
The physical attraction.
But then, you get to know that person.
Those are the lyrics.
That is their story.
Who they are underneath.
It is the combination that make it so magical.

emptiness

2010-10-20T12:52:00.002-06:00

that is all

onerepublic

2010-10-19T17:01:00.000-06:00

All this time we were waiting for each other
All this time I was waiting for you
We got all these words, can't waste them on another
So I'm straight in a straight line
Running back to you

2010-10-18T21:37:00.002-06:00

you have to fall

before you can fly

2010-10-14T20:34:00.000-06:00

a girl doesn't need to be taken care of.
she needs to know you're capable of doing so
and that you want to.

top hat

2010-10-14T12:52:00.001-06:00

My strippers vcard was swiped last night.
I won a poster.
I'm going far in life.

2010-10-11T22:38:00.001-06:00

If you're a bird. Then I'm a bird. <3

2010-10-11T00:03:00.002-06:00

cry.
for the anger.
mistrust.
passion.
love.

we fight.
to feel.

sometimes.
it's alright to be powerless.
enraged with emotion

unleash everything.
you've been hiding.
letting build up.

you know it's real.
what you feel.
the only person who knows.

who needs a prince charming when I have you?

2010-10-10T23:53:00.003-06:00

the world may never know the truth about your life.
that's because they don't care
but when you find the one who wants to know every detail.
they're the one to keep.

current events and emotions

2010-10-10T01:15:00.003-06:00

- I slept for 14 hours last night. CLEARLY there is something wrong with my Lethbridge bed.
- Bought a new workout outfit. The gym must be screaming my name.
- This is going good. I just hope it keeps up.
- I miss my rooomies and it's only been a day.
- I need to get on top of my reading before I fall more behind.
- Stooked for Tight 'N Bright. Gonna look hawt hawt hawt.
- I love baking at home. It's such a comfort.
- I wanna be back in Lethbridge already.
- However, it does suck that I won't be home until Christmas.

mad roomie love

2010-10-09T21:40:00.000-06:00

You make me feel like I'm living a teenage dream.

:)

2010-10-09T16:53:00.002-06:00

I can honestly say that I am happy.
With who I am.
Where I am in life.

2010-10-05T11:52:00.000-06:00

FIGHT FOR WHAT YOU WANT

every inch is bruised

2010-10-01T22:03:00.003-06:00

I write because I can't sleep. I can't sleep because I have too much on my mind. Or I'm just not tired. Either way, its a vicious cycle. I didn't go out tonight because I had to do homework. I didn't get any homework done because everybody was gone out. I might just stop trying for a while. I found you because I wasn't looking. I might just walk away because I'm not what you're looking for. Or am I? I work to afford the nights I won't ever remember. But I hate not remembering some of those night. I've never tried to be somebody I wasn't, because it's not me. There isn't enough hours in the day to waste on trying to be somebody else. So I stay the same. And think too much. I toss and turn. Because I can't sleep.

2010-10-01T13:11:00.001-06:00

you could be so many things.

2010-09-30T17:17:00.000-06:00

Princess Peach is a dirty hoe who sucks for stars in Mario Party.

we'll always be worth it to each other

2010-09-29T22:05:00.006-06:00

Moral fiber. So, what is moral fiber? It's funny, I used to think it was always telling the truth, doing good deeds, basically being a fucking boy scout. But lately I've been seeing it differently. Now I think moral fiber's about finding that one thing you really care about. That one special thing that means more to ...you than anything else in the world. And when you find her, you fight for her. You risk it all, you put her in front of everything, your life, all of it. And maybe the stuff you do to help her isn't so clean. You know what? It doesn't matter. Because in your heart you know, that THE JUICE IS WORTH THE SQUEEZE. That's what moral fiber's all about"

- The Girl Next Door

3 games win

2010-09-29T13:05:00.002-06:00

Team:

Hello, my name is Jessica Wilson'd

that's life

2010-09-28T01:23:00.002-06:00

I'm young. Let me make mistakes. Let me learn from them. When I fall down, I'll pick myself back up. I'll get hurt, I'll hurt people. It's a proven fact. You can't learn from what never happens. So take a risk. Take a chance. Take a leap of faith. It's worth it. Life is worth it. The experience is worth it. You just have to believe. Have a little faith. Stay fearless.

You don't know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have

2010-09-27T14:56:00.003-06:00

I hate that I'm at such a low point in my life right now and it's only the third full week of university. I already have to drop a class or let it drop my GPA. But then it puts me three classes behind. I'm so far behind on reading because of all of the papers I've been having to work on.

Just when I think everything is at the worst it can get, something else happens. Every time somebody tells me it can only get better, it gets worse.

I've had the worst weekend that is leading into the worst week.

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The feelings I feel for you are real. I know they're real. I'm not like any other girl. Even you've said so yourself. I hate that I could be waiting for something that will never happen. But I also want to wait, because I think you're worth it.